Life Sucks

This morning i broke up with my boyfriend. It was really hard. He seemed fine with it, I meen he didnt get emotional at all. I really wanted him to be mad at me, but all he said was "If you need to talk, call me." I was so scared of hurting him.
Today I am leaving school early to go see my Orthapedist about my knee. Im really scared of what he will tell me. Ive never been afraid to go to the doctor befor, I have to go alot because I have a joint disorder. But this time im terrified. The last time anything hurt this badly I ended up having surgery. Im really scared. Im afraid of alot of things lately.

Jamie Lynn Spears

Ok, so as many of you know Jamie is pregnant. Its all over the news! I know she is a celebrity and all but this kind of shit happens every day. Apparently the Spears Family got paid $1-million dollars for exclusivity rights by Ok! magazine. Its retarded. Almost 750,000 teenage girls get pregnant every year in the US. Woop dee flipping dooo, one more really makes that much of a difference. And besides its not like its that surprising, take her big sister for example. Im surprised it didnt happen sooner. This whole thing is just being blown WAY out of proportion.

Christmas Break

Im very unshure as to if I enjoyed my christmas break or not. As a whole it was ok, but there were some bad parts. First of all my boyfriend was in Florida the entire time so I couldnt see him. And yesterday, when he got back, we got to take a walk to Main St. but he didnt ask his mom if he could come over, so when she found out she was REALLY angry at him. I havnt talked to him since so i have no idea what happend. Its really making me quite deppressed and I didnt sleep last night because I was waiting for him to call. :(
A good part of my break was that I finally got a new cell phone, Its soooo awesome, its a double flip phone, its really awesome. And I got a haircut, I donated 12 inches of hair to Locks Of Love. Which is an organization that makes wiggs for cancer patiants, mostly children.
Idk im just really confused.

ADD

Ok well i have major ADD. And if i dont take my pills i am crazy!! And guess what?!?!? I didnt take my pills this morning! I am soooo out of it right now! goodness.
OH YEAH!! I wanted to tell yall that my boyfriend is back from being sick today! I got to spend time with him this morning!!! I was soooo happy!!! hehehe. ok well thats all for now!

La La La

Ok well alot of things have happend since my last post.
First of all, saturday I went to Jesse's wrestling tournament. I helped keep score.
After the tournament I went to Jesse's house and helped him decorate his family's christmas tree.
Sunday, Jesse got sick, and I havnt seen him since then, he hasnt come to school, I still talk to him, but I miss him sooo much!!!! goodness.

Christmas!!

Ok well today they are judging the christmas decorations for our homeroom at my school. Each homeroom was asked to decorate their door for a contest. My homeroom is doing a Bearcat (our mascot) dressed up as santa clause. It looks soo awesome, i really really hope we win.
Tommorow, I am going to Jesse's wrestling turnament, I really dont know that much about wrestling but i enjoy watching him wrestle. After the turnament I am going to go to his house and help him and his mother decorate their christmas tree. I cant wait.

Love

Love is a confusing thing. My boyfriend and i were talking on the phone last night and we were doing this thing where each of us can ask the other any question we want and they have to answer. He asked me to describe him, I said, your like an unfinised book that i havnt read. I have no idea why i said that.
It seems as if these days people say I love you but they dont truely believe their words. Well, right now i believe myself when I say I love my boyfriend. :D He makes me sooo happy, I dont ever remember feeling like this. Just truely happy.